Last night was the night when i realized how lost i am in life.
The person whom i call the love of my life is nothing but a stone…. with no feelings at all, at least not feelings for ME at all. All this time we´ve had this “relationship” has been worst than a mechanic rollercoaster, so many ups and downs that I don´t know if beeing together for christmas is still a good thing.
But, here it is the complicated part: I feel more than lost without him, and being together is not what I expect, so I feel lost in any way possible.
I have no money to go to school, I feel that I have no future, I have brains to complete a career in law school, but I barely have money to eat everyday. I think money is just everything, even when there is a billion people saying love is everything, I dont really think so.
Love hasn´t helped me in anything, love has always torture me in all ways possible. I thought I had the man of my dreams, but i didnt know that dreams aren´t always pretty, so, what i have is a resemble of what thought love was, and truly is not what i wanted
